Equilibrium of characters

I have set my timer for 25 minutes to write my thoughts out on this blog. This blog is very special and intimate for me because I constantly think about this. I have many incredible people in my life right now and I feel very blessed to have them. Although, it is incredibly surprising to see how different our upbringings have been and how we are on the same ground together. How did our universes collide? How did we meet? I come from a very distorted family. We are always there for each other and there is so much love but we are a mess. Sounds like every family, I know right. I am close to a lot of people whose parents looked after them. Their parents took the time to make sure their child developed properly and had the right resources while growing up. This, of course, was not the situation for me. I grew up with somewhat the brute force approach where everyone was fighting for their survival. I am rugged, tough, and disorganized. I think this stems from the fact that I was left to explore my life by myself from a very young age. But how is it that my bestfriend, who was born in Switzerland, has a family that is VERY educated (helped her plan out her life after high school), bought a house where she doesn’t have to worry about making payments, my friend? My family is the complete opposite. My sisters and I are bounded for life to make payments for a family home. My sisters and I are constantly stuck taking care of very dependent parents. My sisters and I are untapped talents and have never been given the resources to go out and achieve things. How are we here on the same planet? side by side? Do Narmeen and I have something in common? Is my energy becoming more and more oriented as I grow older that I meet people who plan things? I think that might be it and I couldn’t be happier. It is good to know that your mental self is really trying hard to break this unhealthy habit that your ancestors have carried along. It is good to know that you have hope and you can influence your loved ones the right way. The flip side to this thought process or mindset is that is it my strengths or my weaknesses that are attracting these really organized people in my life? This is the questions I will always be wondering about and will be seeking clues to answer. I want to take risks in life. I want to LIVE my life. I want to feel my life. I want to just be present and become the best version of myself in this lifetime. I am capable and I will help myself achieve so many levels of success in this world.